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on my knees again.

I am home spending the day in prayer, just me and God. These past couple days have been nothing but emotional. Pops, my grandpa is in really bad shape and has been in the hospital for the past week. There are things wrong with him that I didn't even know were possible. I am a complete family girl and when someone I love, especially in my family isn't doing well, I have a really hard time. I have never dealt with a death in my family and this is a little too close for me. Death as a Christian is amazing, definitely do not get me wrong. I guess I am being selfish as I sit here and pray for God to heal my grandpa again. Pops is a believer in Christ, he assured me the other day on the phone. He knows he will be in Heaven, he accepted Jesus as his Lord and Savior and asked Him to forgive him of his sins. That is so comforting to me, but for those of us who will be left behind...it is so hard. I haven't been able to talk to him since Valentines day and even that conversation was hard as he was short of breath and was on oxygen.
I know that God has a plan through this roller coaster of a journey, right now I definitely do not understand why he has to suffer so much and be in so much pain. I am asking for God to bring a peace to Pops and comfort to him as he lies there in his hospital bed for the 3rd month. I'm asking God to bring a peace to my family that only He can give.
As I was having a quiet time this morning I stumbled upon these verses...

" Blessed are you who hunger now, for you will be satisfied.

Blessed are you who weep now, for you will laugh." - Luke 6:1

That verse made me think of pops, he has not had any food or water for 4 days, he is starving...and one day soon either here on earth or in Heaven, he is going to get to eat again and not have hunger pains. We as a family are weeping now for all that he is going through and one day soon, we will get to laugh again as a family.

The Lord has a plan...

"If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort." - 2 Corinthians 6-7

Amen.

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