Friday, February 22, 2008

one more day...

My sweet Pops is still here with us. They moved him from the hospital last night to rehab into hospice. My family and I went to be with him last night. It was the first time we were able to be with him alone without everyone else there. It was such a special time. He is still in so much pain which is ridiculous because hospice is supposed to make you as comfortable as possible until you pass. We had a great time talking to him and sharing memories that we have. The Lord kept me strong and I was able to just take care of my Pops like old times and hold his hand and hang out. He has a really neat room mate. I don't know his name but he is a retired pastor who has cancer in the lungs, kidneys and now his brain. He was praying for pops and my family and gave us some really neat words of encouragement. He told us that everything will be ok, to go home and rest and to not worry, it's all in the Lord's hands. Here is this man who is laying curled up in bed terminally ill next to my pops who is about to meet the Lord and telling us that everything is going to be ok. He is so right! They are both going to get to meet Jesus very soon! I leaned over and told Pops that his neighbor was praying for him and he though that was so cool. Pops doesn't know why Jesus hasn't called him home yet and we don't know why either. My comment to him was that there must be a long line to get in to Heaven right now. We joked and said that maybe he and pastor will get to carpool up together. Ah, the Lord is good and His timing is perfect. I am really taking everything in and enjoying every last second we have together, its precious. He calls me his nurse angel. It's the sweetest thing, I always take care of him when I'm with him making sure that he is as comfortable as he can be and just reassuring him that we will be ok. Man, I am really going to miss him. I'm sure it will hit me soon once he is no longer here, but I thank God for keeping me strong and giving me the courage to go be with him in his last days. My good friend Jan from work sent me this verse yesterday and it really helped me.

"Do you not know? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the
Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth does not become weary
or tired. His understanding is inscrutable. He gives strength
to the weary, and to Him who lacks might He increases power.
Though youths grow weary and tired, and vigorous young men
stumble badly, yet those who wait for the Lord will gain new
strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, they will
run and not get tired, they will walk and not become weary."
Isaiah 40:28

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