Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Patience

I think God has really been trying to teach me something big in the past 8 months. I am not sure what it is but I will continue to be patient, to follow His will and press on. One thing He has taught me thus far is to be completely dependent on Him and to trust Him in everything. I have.
My accident on the lake was 8 months ago, in a way that was a blessing because it did slow me down and made me make more time to take care of me. Other than that I'm not really sure why it happened. I am so thankful that it wasn't anymore serious that it was and thank the Lord all the time that I am not paralyzed.
I had my tumor removed 3 months ago yesterday. That was s scare and found myself again completely dependent on Christ. I was OK with whatever it was and am so thankful it was not cancer. Maybe God was testing my Faith?
I lost my Pops 2 weeks ago today. That is the toughest thing I have ever gone through. I miss him so much and find myself with tears running down my cheeks at random times, like now just missing him and wishing I could talk to him and hear him laugh again.
Here I am tonight, and my tumor is back and is bigger than it was before. I am so confused about it. It wasn't supposed to come back and if it did it should not have been this soon. I am going back to see the specialist on Wednesday to see what the next step is. I am stressing about this because the surgery was not cheap and we just finished paying it off from December.

The last thing I want to do is complain and I am not about to ask God "why?" because I know this is part of His plan for Chris and I. I am just really struggling with all of the trials that have been laid before me. I will overcome each one by the grace of God and I know that I will be stronger because of each thing that has happened.
If you could say a prayer for Chris and I after you're done reading this, that would be so awesome. I was a little hesitant to post this but a few extra prayers can't hurt us right?
Thank you loved ones.

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