Monday, April 14, 2008

blue.

Ever have those days where you're just kind of sad and down in the dumps? To be honest with you, I don't have them often if at all but I am today. I took Riley into the vet this morning to have his claws taken out and to have him neutered. It was terrible, I am so protective over him and I hate knowing that I won't get him back until Wednesday and that he is in pain, drives me crazy! What am I going to do when I'm a mom of a baby? I'm crazy over that little guy.
I've been thinking about my Pops a lot lately. I get so bummed out when I stop and think of him. I normally will distract myself when my mind goes to him because I can't handle it yet. I've dealt with his death really well so far. I thought I would be a wreck day in and day out but the Lord has kept me strong, especially for grandma. I heard the song "Tears in Heaven" this morning and for some reason it got to me. I used to love the song when I was younger, I would think of my brother and sister who are in Heaven and would wonder all the time if they will know who I am and if I will know who they are when I get to Heaven. It's the first time I've heard it since my Pops passed away and I broke down wondering if he will remember me when I get there. I'm sure he will but I don't know. I know one thing for sure and that is there are no tears in Heaven and that I will get to see my loved ones again up there.
Anyway, here's the song....

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