Friday, August 12, 2011

Slow down girl

Wasn't it just yesterday that we welcomed this little beauty into the world?

Well, maybe not yesterday since I'm 4 months pregnant but in a way it feels like we just met this precious girl for the first time. And now... we are getting ready to celebrate her 2nd birthday. I feel like her 2nd birthday is hitting me harder than her first birthday. I'm realizing daily how fast this is going, our tiny baby is growing up into a beautiful young girl who never ceases to amaze us. It hit me hard last night. 
Those of you who are friends with me on facebook or follow on twitter saw that last night was Kate's first night without her beloved pacifier or as she has named it, "Ba". We weren't planning on getting rid of it last night but it sort of it happened and we went for it. She screamed and begged for it and not giving in was the hardest thing we've had to do in a long time. She woke up during the night and called out to everyone she could think of for two hours to bring her "ba". It broke our hearts. I was so sad realizing that all her baby things are going away. Why do they have to grow up so fast? Chris and I laid in bed and he was saying, "before we know it she will be off to school, turning 10, starting to drive, graduating high school, graduating college, getting married.." 
STOP! This is going way too fast. I just want to be in denial and think that she will stay this little forever. I love her innocence, her pure heart, her joy, her simplicity, the way she loves with all her heart, the way her little feet pitter patter all over the house as she looks for me and calls my name.
Alas, I am excited to watch her grow and blossom into a beautiful young woman and be there for her every step of the way. This is just the beginning for our Kate and I could not be more thankful to be her mama. 
I do wish these days would slow down though. I just want to rock her a little while longer while her little hand still fits around my finger.
I can't help but smile with a few tears in my eyes as I look to the future and picture what she will look like, who she will be, the adventures she will go on, the trials she will endure and the joy she will experience as she grows into the woman that the Lord has designed her to be. 
I just pray along the way she never forgets how much her Father in Heaven adores her and longs for her to have a personal relationship with Him. 
Thank you Jesus for blessing us with this incredible gift. We could never thank you enough for our Kate and the love she has filled our hearts with.

...and darling, don't you ever grow up. 
Please stay this little..

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