I made it. I am out of the ever so dreaded first trimester. There is something about those first 13 weeks that keep you on the edge of your seat. I know for me with having history of a miscarriage I always dread the first few weeks. I think it's also so unknown because you can't hear the heartbeat on a home doppler and you can't feel the baby move yet. I remember laying down on the table at my 10 week appointment and held my breath and prayed as my nurse did the doppler to find the heartbeat. Oh the sigh of thanksgiving and praise I let out when we heard that little thing racing away.
There is something completely different about this pregnancy than my previous two. The fear is gone. I have had a couple moments of freak outs this time around but that ugly fear that would dangle over my head day after day, is not there! It is something that we prayed and prayed about before we got pregnant and the moment we found out that baby #2 was on the way we began to pray and asked the Lord for His covering over this child and complete peace. We were not hesitant to share the good news with our family at only 5 weeks because we knew this child was a gift from God and trusted that we will be bringing the baby home.
The Lord has been so faithful and here we are, just passed 14 weeks and getting more excited each day to add this little blessing to our family. I had an awesome appointment yesterday, little one still sounds like a racehorse with a heart rate of 164. I am still fighting morning sickness, more like evening sickness. I usually start to fade around 2pm and dinner sounds horrible to me. These days I am living off of cereal, still love bread and fresh fruit. I am up a total of 5 pounds and somehow still fit in my regular jeans. I had the belly band out by 8 weeks with Kate. Funny how your body adjusts the second time around.
Our ultrasound is scheduled, 14 more days until we know if Kate will have a baby brother or a baby sister. That is if he/she cooperates! I feel like I'm counting down the minutes. I can hardly wait to plan and pick a name and shop! There is one question that Chris and I have been asked at least 50 times and it amazes us. "Do you want a boy or another girl?" Really? Is this a real question? We also get the "Ohhh I so hope it's a boy, one boy...one girl..how perfect!" I'm glad so many people have opinions and concerns but to be quite honest we will be THRILLED and over the moon with whatever the Lord gives us. I don't know how you could be disappointed. It's something that is not up to us, God has had our family planned since the beginning of time and there is nothing we can do or would do to change that. Our prayer is for a healthy baby, nothing else matters.
Baby #2 is now the size of a lemon.
Measuring at 3.5 inches long and weighing 1.5 ounces.
Can't wait to see you in two weeks, little one!